In finding my voice, I have asked myself who am I. Am I the girl who laughs at her own mistakes and moves on? Am I the girl who can make others laugh? Am I serious? Am I dramatic? Am I boring and stale? Am I inspirational and heart felt? What is my true voice? What feels right? Soul searching is a time consuming job that requires hours of staring at the ceiling and tons of internal conversation. To be frank, I am sick of talking to myself because I can not fit myself into a perfect little box labeled with a designer label that tells who I am. I am all those things at times and more. I can be silly and fun but that doesn’t mean I can’t have a flair for the dramatic. I am not a label. I am a constantly changing, ever moving, living human being. I don’t fit in a perfect box (some of that is due to my fear of small spaces… if I can’t get up and run I’m going to freak out).
Because my blog title has the word crafting in it doesn’t mean I am only a crafter. I am a mother, wife, wanna be inspirational guru, word arranger, photographer in training, kitchen decleaner, graphic artist…. more labels yes I know. If I was a minivan you wouldn’t know what color I was for the bumper stickers. None of us are just one thing. We are all capable of being so much more than a niche. Don’t feel like you have to change yourself to fit a label you have been given. Don’t press yourself into a mold that doesn’t fit. Be who you are, live your life, breathe your air, bask in your own sunshine… You don’t have to sit tucked away hiding behind a wall of what you think others want you to be. Break free from your mental confinement and be yourself because who you are is what makes you beautiful. I know it kinda sounds corny but just because it sounds corny doesn’t make it any less true.
I once wrote a poem (yes I used to write poetry and it was super sappy but I was a teenager and that is what budding sentence stranglers do) about how I was the only me there will ever be. Probably a lot of people are thankful there will not be another me (inlaws come to mind) but think about it, if you aren’t yourself and make yourself known to the world there will be a person trapped inside a little box that will never again be able to share their gifts and talents with the world. All you have to give will be forever gone because you really are the only one of you that will walk this planet. You are unique and wonderfully made in God’s image.
I don’t fit in a label, I am not one set niche and I am happy with my countless badges of honor (I’m not talking those stretchmarks from childbirth although I also refer to those as badges of honor). I am everything I can be and anything I want to be, free to experience whatever it is that I am into at the moment. I am not going to force myself to be anything just because I think someone else wants me to. I am going to be true myself.